Liar. Liar.
I often lie to myself. It is perhaps a survival technique. A secret weapon in my arsenal of accomplishing tasks. In all other aspects of my life my integrity is intact, but with myself I often use deception. I tell myself things like “tomorrow” or “next week” or “I was too busy.” These are all convenient non-truths that I employ to get through the most hectic days.
Every January we make vision boards. We sit down as a family and talk about the past year, we then hope for a brighter future by sharing our new year’s collage of dreams. I love this process. I love setting goals and making things happen. I relish seeing what others hope for and how I can support their visions.
I love to-do lists that make me feel like I have more than 24 hours in a day. But again lies. The reality is that my list of what needs attention and the amount of tasks to be done takes up two full pages on a standard legal pad. To survive the never ending workload I just tell myself little lies i.e. “eventually you will get all this done” and “certainly we can accomplish all this today”…
Recently at a goat walk I was asked “How much work is all this, like how many hours a day?” And this kind woman genuinely was curious about how much work it takes to manage Not By Luck Ranch. I was caught a bit off guard because the truth is that I don’t know how much time. I don’t think our clock or calendar system has that number, the amount of time it takes is in the quantum realm. I tell myself one day soon I will hire help, I sure hope that is not another lie.
I am working hard on being honest with myself and accepting that I do not have enough time to do it all. The reality is help is required to grow, this is a fact of life. But before more help can be secured resources have to be raised. Soon we will begin to accept donations. Many of you have expressed a desire to help with our goals by supporting us monetarily and for that we thank you. Also, we are participating in a fundraiser on February 4th, Wine & Chocolate at the Blue Goose Event Center in Loomis CA. Tickets are $35 and include an evening of sampling, live music, door prizes and of course good times :) I will post a link to tickets below and I hope we see you there!
My resolution for this year is to stop lying to myself and face my to-do list from a calm position of reality instead of hard core state of denial. Sometimes if one believes in a fantasy long enough it becomes a reality. Long ago I trained myself to use my imagination to build things like goat walks. I hope you too use the power of your mind to bring your goals to life.
Happy New Year everyone!
